Writer's Block: You're my best friend
CarolineHands down, my best friend.
We bonded over our devious attitudes, an accidental left hook to the chin in fourth grade
and an inexplicable love of beyond-our-age books.
She
cut the hair off our Barbie dolls.
We rode bicycles to a hidden place.
We were eight when she moved to Hilton Head. We sent letters every week.
Calling cards every Friday. Not an easy feat for kids.
It's easy to forget someone, especially when you're young.
But something...something.
Something about her kept me writing, kept me calling, kept her close to me.
So we shared music
and slumber parties during the holidays
and called on birthdays.
And then, every summer, like magic...we were together again.
We were complete summer sisters. I basked in her hometown glory, not too down the road a-ways from mine.
But a few mile
s becomes a continent.May queens, dressed up as princesses, terrorizing the neighborhood in golf carts.
We were so different. She was class and sparkle.
She had money. She knew about things. She always knew people.
I had nothing but a pocketful of virtues.
I, of ever somber intellect
limited fortune
passable of face,
her ever ready shadow
not
completely without charms but...
...She made things brighter, funnier, awesome-er. And she chose me.
She gave twenty dollars to a homeless man.
She paid for my first concert - we were thirteen.
**Counting Crows/Wallflowers. Magical experience. As a lifelong music lover/festival goer/show hopper, this is noteworthy.
Our first kisses were with the same boy.
When she moved back home, oh joy!
Then we're week-enders.
Sharing friends, old resentments.
Betty and Veronica.
But still sisters, a different kind.
She is private academies and cocktail hour
to my public education
yearbook staff
SAT scores.
Elite parties in mysterious places.
Midnight trips, always sneaking through my back door
and into my room, bringing things.Strange boys in my bed. Vodka bottles.
Graduation. Jewelry. Hugs. I see her in the stands. I didn't make it to hers.
Jack Daniels was her favorite alcohol. She brought her own shot glass.
College. She was sorority and law, I was hemp and a paintbrush.
Amazing birthdays, bars, songs.
Revelations, waking up, driving away.
Keeping touch, for a different reason. A different place.
Still strong.
So distant.
Slipping
Right out of my fingers.
Shotgun memory:
barefoot on the stones of a empty river bed, strange spiders skittering across our toes skipping across the banks.
Amazing girl. Girlish but strong. Funny but never cruel. Generous.
Every important first together,
kid-tween-teen-20
Everyone loved her and
Wanted to be her best friend.
She chose me.
And then she died.
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